perseverance

it is officially the holiday season and I must admit I am a little excited. I usually hate the holidays, but this year I am feeling less of a Scrooge and more giving. I plan on either making or purchasing gifts from local stores. I want to give personal gifts that I hope my friends will like. I shall be moving back to MA in a few days. I don't have an apartment, but I start my training for A White Lie Dec. 6. I'm pumped to get sweating and sore. It will be almost 3 months of intensive dance and strength training! I think I most excited to see my friends and get back into my normal environment. I have found out through these last three months of soul searching and digging that I am not a suburban girl. I enjoy visiting, but I much prefer living in a city or somewhat close to a city. Thanksgiving was quite a feat. I had two dinners with two separate aunts. I love food. Since returning home I've gained 8 pounds. I know! That's not a lot to most people, but on my small frame, I finally look like a woman. I have curves! BOOBS! I'm thankful I won't have to drop to unbelievable skinny for the film. My trainer said to look toned dancer shape. Whatever, I want something to do. I've been incredibly bored, which means I've been reading more, watching even more movies, and even started a new script and polishing up some of my old scripts. I know I say this every time I move or start something new that this will be a new beginning, this time I really want to put an effort into everything I do. (again, this goes back to the soul digging) Of all my regrets and embarrassments that I can't re-do, my choice is now to give an astounding impression and keep up a decent reputation. I hate when people think I'm not serious or lazy about what I do. I do admit I can be lazy/tired, but that is no longer an excuse. Time is ticking. A little update. I plan on beginning a new blog to recount my adventures training, rehearsing, and filming A White Lie as well as my other acting endeavors. I enjoy reading other young actresses and their trials and tribulations in the acting world. It makes me feel less alone - even though everyone wants to be a movie star. How many actually make it?